Last year's days

"Don't let the system get you down!"
Mattafix - Big City Life

The system is getting me down.

Drunk

This evening was a good evening; I enjoyed several glasses of wine and beer with my friends.
I am so drunk.. It's time to go to bed.
Bye, see you tomorrow.

What the fuck am i thinking?

Yesterday evening I got a strange idea.. I don't know why, but I thought to call my old girlfriend.
We were not together, but for 3 years we shared all, officially we were just friends, but i think we were more than friends; I don't know what she thinks about.
I haven't call she, but I'll do it in few days.
On this time, I have not yet explained why this idea is so strange.. because she is a mum now.
She got a baby from a relation of three years, ended last summer (if I am updated); he is a very bad person, I don't know what she found on him, but for me he is one of the worst person I ever met; he is always drunk, he uses drugs, he beated she for a long time..
I think I will call she, because more than ever I know I loved her.
I will let you know.

Merry Christmas

Also this year, Christmas is here.
Usually I don't like this day, but this year is different, I don't know why but today I feel happy, it should be because I received several messages from new and old friends for the season's greetings.
From about two months, I have deeply changed my lifestyle but not in a better way, I am more and more alone than before, I don't feel well, it seems that the others don't care about me, it seems I am invisible, nobody looks for me, nobody cares about me, nobody tries to understand why they don't see me anymore around as before.
All started during my last trip to London and to Dublin (from 26 October to 7 November), I don't know what, but somethings happened to me.
I need to change, I wish to become the same Alberto of past, but.. is it possibile?